Cold night I lay in my bed

The lonely wind whispers my name, I'll never reply

I close my eye's my world swirls, distorted

Thoughts of pain and suffering fill my mind like a flood

My eyes open violently, cold sweat, thoughts linger in the air like annoying insects

I punch the wall next to my bed, blood, for a split second I am reborn

I forget

I close my eyes ounce more and I see nothing, but her

Beautiful

My problems seem distant, I am careless, not so cold anymore

Happy again

I wake up sunlight in my face, phone chiming like a clean distraction

I put on my clothes and smiley face mask

They need it

Hoping and hoping

To be happy again